Personal Reflections
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The Space Between Us
You looked at me longer than most people do. It wasn’t the quick glance people give before moving on, the kind that skims the surface and never bothers to linger. It was steady, almost deliberate, like you were letting yourself… Continue reading
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The Distance I Don’t Know How to Cross
Sometimes I catch myself staring at your hands, your mouth, the way you breathe when you’re thinking. It’s stupid, how much I notice. I memorize you without permission, like I’m preparing for a goodbye I never agreed to. I tell… Continue reading
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Another Life, Maybe
There’s a kind of connection that doesn’t need to be spoken to be understood. Yours lives in the way I feel when you’re near me. I don’t know how to explain it clearly, but I notice things I don’t notice… Continue reading
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Slow Isn’t Boring When It Feels Like Safety
I don’t know how to explain it. The way I feel pulled toward you, even when I’m doing everything I can to keep my distance. It’s not about fear of you – it’s what you bring up in me. You… Continue reading
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When Distance Was the Only Way I Knew to Stay Safe
You don’t know how often I rehearsed distance in my mind. I told myself what to say if I saw you. I practiced not looking too long, not smiling too much, not letting my voice give anything away. I made… Continue reading
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The Love I Never Said Out Loud
I used to think love had to be loud to count. That it had to come with declarations and certainty and all the things movies make look easy. But what I felt for him never moved like that. It was… Continue reading
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Why I Always Kept One Foot Out the Door
He asked why I always seemed half-in. Why I’d smile with my whole face but hold something back with my body. Why I wouldn’t let him pick me up from the airport or leave a toothbrush at his place. He… Continue reading
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We Protected the Moment by Pretending It Wasn’t Real
Some memories stay sharp no matter how much time passes. Not because they were loud or dramatic, but because they lived in silence. In glances. In the way his hand almost reached for mine but didn’t. In the way we… Continue reading
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Somewhere Between Silence and Surrender
We were always one breath away from too much. There was a gravity between us, subtle but undeniable – like standing on the edge of something vast, knowing one more step would pull us under. We didn’t touch, not really.… Continue reading
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He Wasn’t Safe. He Was Real
If I wanted easy, I wouldn’t want him. I wouldn’t be drawn to the way he made comfort feel counterfeit. He wasn’t smooth. He wasn’t simple. He showed up like a question I couldn’t answer, a feeling I couldn’t name.… Continue reading
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Everything We Didn’t Say Out Loud
We were just friends. That’s what we kept saying. Like repeating it out loud would make it true. Like the word just could somehow erase the tension in the room when we sat too close, or the way his voice… Continue reading
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The Vows We Don’t Talk About
No one really talks about what happens after the vows. After the dress is packed away, the champagne glasses are cleared, the photos are posted. We’re sold this picture – glowing rings, perfect captions, the dream of finally being chosen.… Continue reading
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This Thing Between Us
You say it’s easy between us. And it is. Every moment feels natural, every silence feels safe, every glance feels like a conversation we don’t need to translate. There’s no effort, no pretending, no weight in the air we can’t… Continue reading
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Where Feeling Meets Restraint
I didn’t mean for it to happen. I didn’t go looking for it. But feelings don’t wait for permission, and they don’t follow rules. You were supposed to be safe. Not in the emotional way – safe in the untouchable,… Continue reading
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What We Don’t Say Still Hurts
There’s comfort in this almost-thing between us. The way we orbit each other just close enough to feel the warmth, but never enough to burn. It lives in quiet moments – the pause before goodbye, the messages that never quite… Continue reading
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The Safety of Almost
I want to say it. Every part of me wants to let it out, to name the thing sitting between us like it doesn’t already have teeth. But I know once the words leave my mouth, we can’t unhear them.… Continue reading
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Safe in the Silence
I don’t hide what I feel to be mysterious. I do it because the last time I let someone see all of it, they didn’t know what to do with it. So now I keep it quiet. Folded between the… Continue reading
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What I Never Learned to Say
I’ve spent so long learning how to hold myself together, how to stand still in a room without reaching for anyone. I called it strength, told myself needing nothing meant I couldn’t be broken by anyone again. But then you… Continue reading
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And still, you almost drowned.
You only ever saw the surface of me. And still, you almost drowned. Not because it was loud. Not because I overwhelmed you. But because even the quietest part of me carries a depth most people never ask about. I… Continue reading
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Too quiet to ruin. Too full to forget.
I never told you what I felt because I didn’t trust the words to come out soft enough. So I let it show in smaller ways. The way I remembered things you never said out loud. The way I stayed… Continue reading
Light Calls To Light 